Another Day

"Afresh I seek thee, Lead me-once more I pray-
Even should it be against my will, thy way.
Let me not feel thee [Lord] foreign any hour.
Or shrink from thee as an estranged power.
Through doubt, through faith, through bliss, through stark dismay,
Through sunshine, wind, or snow, or fog or shower,
Draw me to thee who art my only day."
George MacDonald
Diary Of An Old Soul
I don't want to be so selfish as to make my friends death about me. I have, however, realized that his passing has made me examine-naturally-my life. He had everything...he lived. I see that I have failed to step out in trusting my God. I live for Him but not wholly by Him. I will start.

Loss

Thinking of a dear friend who passed away last night.
"God, help me, dull of heart, to trust in thee.
Thou art the Father of me-not any mood
Can part me from the One, the verily Good.
When fog and failure o'er my being  brood,
When life looks but a glimmering marshy clod,
No fire out flashing from the living God-
Then, then, to rest in faith were worthy victory!"
George MacDonald
Diary of an Old Soul

Slowing down

Things are just starting to slow down; finally. I have purchased at least 6 new (used) books in hopes of getting quiet time. I have purged my house of junk-which was actually very cleansing emotionally :) I have been able to sleep-in at least twice. I had a one night camping experience with some family members, first time in at least 20 yrs. And, I plan on taking a week off in August...I hope to paint more, make a dent in those books I picked up, accomplish more organizing and get to the ocean.